Too long..

Via

Hi. Hello. Hiya. What's up?

I have missed you all so dearly! It's been entirely too long since I've been on this here blog and I'm bursting with things to tell you.

I was only suppose to be gone for a couple of days while the boy and I went on our trip to Chicago, but that turned into a week..which turned into two.. and here we are at about a month. 

I've been so bogged down with feelings and just drama with my work situation that doing much else has been a constant struggle.

I can't live for what's to come tomorrow so I decided to live for what's here today. 

Avoiding everything only exacerbates the problem and doesn't make me any happier, on the contrary, it makes me more anxious!

I love this blog and I love all of you. 

Tomorrow I will be back with some of the things we did in Chicago. 

I hope you've missed me.. because I've missed you!

With All My Love,

Pati

Thoughts

I wrote this post a couple of days ago and was debating whether I should actually post it or not.
I consider you all my long distance friends, so here goes...

For the past few months I've been itching to leave this town and never return.

Ever.

I feel like I wasn't made to live here, if that makes any sense at all. I use to love my job until it wore me down and made me lose all my motivation and drive. That was honestly the only thing keeping me here. I started this blog a couple of months back to meet interesting people who I could relate to, I have, and that's why I love it! It makes me happy to write down blog posts, take pictures, and show everyone a little about me!

It's given me that soul that I completely lost with my job. 

Yesterday afternoon as I was talking to a friend, who I haven't seen in a while, I realized how much I need to move.

I've always been an artistic\crafty person but I followed a traditional career path. I thought that it would leave me fulfilled but it hasn't. At all. 

I went to college five hours away from here and then returned because of personal issues with an ex. It's been three years back and I don't know how much longer I can handle it!

If I could, I would just leave today and figure it out when I get there. 

To me that's what I need to do to be myself again. I'm glad I have this blog because without it I would feel so empty.

It's so hard to just move an entire family even just a couple of hours away without some type of stability.

As much as that scares me I put it out of my mind and think about how many more opportunities I will have.

I honestly don't think I was made for a 8-5 job. If for the mean time I have to have one, I will but eventually I will find my niche. That day/month/year will be amazing.

Feeling quite stuck at the moment. I try not to think about it because it completely bogs me down. I get overwhelmed with feelings. The more I put it off though, the longer I'm in my head.
Just had to get that out! I hope some of you understand. Advice?

Gladly, I will be leaving this weekend and heading to some punk rock shows in Houston. It's been a while since I've been there. Tons of pictures will be taken and hopefully I can de-stress a little.
Sorry for such a downer post on a Friday but life happens. Lame sauce.

With all my love,

Pati